Is there any ethics left in the Entertainment business?

Well I've asked myself that question several times this last couple of weeks after a lot of interesting discussions, both with my friend Charlie who's here to become a professional dancer but also with my acting teachers in my theatre class. And before I came here, yes I admit I was a bit of a "attention seeking kinda girl" that thought that being on TV would be such an amazing thing. I feel a little ashamed of myself thinking like that. Because I forgot what the true passion is really about when it comes to the art form I know as Theatre! But I got a reminder of that, especially from Brian. He says so many good things. And we've talked a lot about how it these days is all about spectacular shows and sets that costs millions to make, and by that rising the ticket prices for a show on Broadway to as much as $350!! That's insane. And the actors kinda fade away a bit behind all this "awesome things". What happened to just performing and delivering something touching, like two ppl on stage all alone without as much as a chair, just two ppl talking and living and sharing with us, the audience. No, that's history in the big arenas. Now it's all about the set. And of course making lots and lots of money! Money, that word again. I thought I'd escape it. But no. Everything has to do with money. And when money mixes with art, it gets complicated, unfair and just wrong. It and the big players take away the true meaning and passion about what it's really about to express yourself through the art form, that is in my case theatre. I just get so upset talking and thinking about this. And my other teacher, Molly. She is so talented, she has an amazing voice and she's such a good actress. And she wants to do musicals, and on Broadway I think. But she doesn't look like the "typical" american Hollywood type that are sought for these days. So she has a harder time than many others to get there. And even if she might work hard and have the talents that makes a good musical artist, if she doesn't have the "look" she will get pushed away by some other half-good actress that just happen to have the right look that will attract an audience and make money for the ppl who put up the show. Uuck. This makes me sick!

I still want to try movies and TV. But it's not the same thing as with being on stage and within that moment that u can never take back. It's alive and it's right here right now. That's what's fascinating with theatre and acting. And many Hollywood actors are trained by the stage, but when the big bucks keep rolling in it's hard to say no, even if the movie itself might have sucked or been good. But it hasn't given you the true experience of what it is to be an actor within the moment, because when u finally get there, they yell "CUT!" and the emotion is gone or has to be relived.

I definatley know now that I love acting for the right reason. I love the feeling within the moment, the moment where u finally connect with your character and you and it become one. I'm not saying that can't happen on the screen, it can. But on stage there are no "cuts" when the show is running. And ppl live the story right there, LIVE in front of their eyes. Oh. that's wonderful. I got a little carried away there. But after mine and Paul, my acting teachers workshop today working on my monologue I felt it all so clear to me. Why I started to go into acting, why I love it so much. Why I forgot about the true purpose and the meaning and how I found it again. And how ppl really can affect your life and give u inspiration and encouragement to go and move further. Which he did and I really appreciate that. I got constructive criticism that I need to work and learn the skills of acting. Which every beginner actor needs. But I have a lot of talent and something that not everybody have, natural instinct. I really don't know what that means, but I hope it's a good thing. Anyways. I feel really confident that this is what I want to do. I just need to figure out the path towards my goal. If it's here in L.A, Chicago, Sweden or someplace else? I don't know. As long as I can be on stage, learn more about acting and theatre and evolve and grow as a person I am happy! Oh I miss my Acting group in Sweden now. Well. I'll see them again soon...

Something I posted on FB earlier...I might post it here to. Isn't this the perfect picture of how Hollywood and the business itself has become? Why should such a sweet and pretty girl want to turn into a monster...Well I guess nobody really has the answer to that...


I don't even think I have to write the name of this person, right?...

I hope we all see this is an example, and I know that I've sometimes thought that why not change if u can and have the money for it. But I've started to think otherwise. Maybe not something I thought would happen while being here. But God works in mysterious ways...

Ella and Hanna! Write back to me! What do u think, and how are u guys??

//Frieda *

Dissapointments, just a part of life?

Well, sometimes you wonder. When things go against u over and over again. I have been through it before in my life and it's not something I enjoy. And being a rather "sensitive" and emotional person I take it harder than maybe I should sometimes. But I'm just so tired of things, not just one thing, but several going against me! First it's the money issue, then it's another money issue, then a third. You think u wiull get the times and weeks u requested at work, but no. And then when you look forward to something, it never happens because things or ppl get in the way. You think that ppl or guys that u meet will be honest and decent, but they're not. And those who are, you are so good so don't think anything else, ok? And you good ppl, guys and girls, know who u are.

I guess I'm just trying to see the light in the tunnel and being clouded by the darkness at the moment. But with the help from wonderful ppl like Linnea and Charlie I feel a lot better and that I can handle most things that come in my way.

I just wanted to write of some anger, thoughts and worries. I always feel a little bit better. Oh how I wish I had a cigarette right now. I know, it's not good for you. But I feel that it calms me down, sometimes.

Oh, well got to hop into bed now. Acting class in the morning and then study hard all day and practicing my monologue with Paul.

See and talk to you soon!

Ella and Hanna, I miss you guys! I hope u miss me to...

XoXo - Frieda.

The journey towards the new me...

Hey ya'll!

My personal blog got taken away today or yesterday. I guess it has something to do with the fact that something's been happening to my gmail account. My theater teacher told me in class today that my gmail has been spitting out emails with Viagra ads! And I know for a fact that I've sent no such things to anyone! And when I was supposed to log in earlier today it said that my account was unavailable. So I guess they think that I've violated the terms or something and since my blog is connected to that email account that one got deleted to. Oh well then I remembered this little baby that I haven't been taken care of enough. Sorry Ella and Hanna! I will from now on do better! Because I know a lot of ppl read my blog. Or have started to read it!

So...my thoughts for the day or for the last week actually has been, well let's just say that they could have been better. Nothing big and definatley nothing to worry about! It's just the same old Frieda thinking bad and putting herself down and comparing to other ppl. U know the drill. So yesterday Linnea brought it to my attention, not in a bad or angry way. No, in the friendly concerned kinda way. We were sitting at on the grass on Campus and talking and she said that she thinks it's sad that such a wonderful, nice, kind and beautiful girl like me should feel so bad about herself. Because I really don't need or have to! And I know this deep down, I think. Or maybe not. See there I go again. Well. It's just that it's there buried deep under my skin within my soul. And it's not just something you "get rid" of in one day. But as she said it, it made me start thinking that maybe ppl are picking up on it more than I actually realize. And even if I feel that I'm in a little low period at the moment, concerning career and other stuff, I need to develop a thicker skin! Otherwise I'm, never gonna make it or even have the guts to try and make it. And ppl, especially guys in this matter will not want to have a girl that thinks like that about herself. So I decided that today is gonna be the first day of the rest of my life. And I'm gonna do what Paul, my acting teacher suggested, shift focus and try to beat those demons inside and turn them into something useful! Oh, Paul and Jocelyn really are my inspirations and kind of like two mentors. I've already told them that once, but I think I'm gonna tell them again. Cuz they always makes me feel good. Even if it's just a little thing. And that's something that I appreciate. I'm gonna give them something "little" last day of class. I think they're gonna like it, or I hope they're gonna like it! I can't tell u here what it is, cuz someone might read and tell them...ha ha.

Well I can't promise that I'll succeed with this new-Frieda thing instantly, but I'll definatley try! I actually went to the Student Health Center, the counseling center today and booked an appointment for Monday. I just want to ease my chest a little bit, get a few things out of my system and tell a complete stranger about me feelings and thoughts just to see what they think. U don't have to have the worlds biggest problem or issues in order to go and talk to someone.

Ah well, there were more stuff I was gonna tell u guys, but I'll leave that for tomorrow. I think I'm gonna hop in to bed soon. It's getting kinda late.

Take care my friends and we'll talk soon!

XoXo - Frieda K*


Newport Beach Film Festival - At Hästens store at Fashion Island...Pre mingle!

Söndagsmiddag på en måndag

Nyss hemkomna från att lämnat av Luca på Landvetter. Himla tråkigt att han åkt =/. Innan Landvetter hann vi med en middag på La Gondola med god mat och dryck.





/Ella

En morgon dagen efter

Det har varit en innehållsrik helg. Helt ofattbart att jag orkar stå på benen. Jag kan det men inte Jessica, ännu. I fredags var vi och spelade biljard vilket var trevligt. Men fasen vad dålig jag har blivit! Måste spela mer och oftare. Men biljard blir mer naturligt utomalnds, i sol och värme.





Igår tog vi en runda på stan och kollade läget. Vi åt en lunch på Tranquilo och tog en öl i solen. Rätt skönt ställe men man får inte så mycket på tallriken. Men ölen var god =). Sedan gick vi vidare till Universeum. Jag har inte varit där på flera år. Aporna var supersöta! =D







Vi avslutade dagen med en fika i Haga. Älskar denna vackra stadsdel! Kvällen spenderades på Lounge.






Nu blir det söndagsmys och senare antagligen fotbollskväll på ett sporthak. Jessica släpar med Luca på en dagstur till Borås =) hehe.

/E

Långe fredag

Imorse skuttade jag och Jessica ut på en joggingrunda i Slottsskogen förbi pingviner och sälar. På vägen stannade vi och plockade lite björkris för vår kommande kreation. Är det påsk så är det.

Här är Fjädris med sin kompis Tuppis på pallis.



Nu ska vi iväg och hämta upp Gianluca på flygplatsen. Gud nåde Jessica om han är en galen pervers kleptoman. Nää skämt och sido så kommer vi nog ha kul som vi alltid har. Fick present av Jessica förut. Jättefina pilgrimsörhängen och ett Miss trouble linne =)

Sweet!






/E

Skärtorsdag

Nyss kom älskade Jessica hit från Kalmar! Hon ska vara vår hemmakyckling hela påsken och det ska bli superkul! Äventyrhela helgen och imorgon kommer herren från Schweiz. Hur ska det sluta! Dags för vino blanco.


Glad Påsk på er!



//Ella

Fixarfredag

Är fortfarande krasslig men känner att jag är på bättringsvägen. Kände att det var lika bra att vara hemma från jobbet idag så att jag verkligen blir frisk. När man jobbar så längtar man efter att vara hemma men när man väl är hemma och är sjuk så längtar man efter jobbet. Fasen vad trist det är att vara hemma. Man blir expert på tv-tablån. Satt och tittade på Våra bästa år och man kan ju skratta gott åt att man fortfarande hänger med i intrigerna (och då har jag inte tittat på över ett halvår! ).

Idag ska jag ägna dagen åt att försöka fixa lite här hemma. Ska få ordning på sovrummet. Om jag vore rik så skulle jag på direkten åka iväg och köpa en ny och härlig säng. Har så fruktansvärt ont i ryggen och jag har mina aningar om att det är madrassen som är boven i dramat. Och det är inte bara madrassen som jag vill köpa utan också en snygg sängram. Jag har mina planer att skaffa en himmelsäng. De har en på Ikea som inte var så farligt dyr. Ja en himmelsäng får det bli som man sedan kan man experimentera och laborera med härliga tyger.

Fantastic




Något annat helt fantastiskt är Lady Gagas video Telephone. Jonas Åkerlund har lyckats än en gång. Love it!



Nu blir det fixarfredag!
Hoppas ni mår bra och att ni får en härlig fredagkväll.

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Ella

Feberfrossa

Så har man blivit sjuk! Jag hoppas att min kropp laddar om snarast för jag vill njuta av vårsolen och träna..

Aaaatchjoooooo!

Sega onsdag!

Hade bestämt att jag och Susanne skulle på tjejboxningen ikväll men på väg hem från jobbet mådde jag illa och blev helt spyfärdig. Just nu går det magsjuka på jobbet så jag får hålla tummarna för att det bara var mina hjärnspöken som levde loppan. Ska lägga mig tidigt idag så att jag mår bättre och kan boxas imorgon.

Ikväll är det Drömmen om Italien. Tycker serien är jätterolig. Synd att jag inte såg att de gjorde reklam för serien innan för annars hade jag helt klart sökt. Jag är mycket intresserad av heminredning och älskar Italien så det kunde ju inte bli mycket bättre. Tänk er själva att leva i Italien som en stolt ägare av ett mysigt pensionat och själv varit med och byggt upp verksamheten från grunden! Känner längtan till Italien när jag ser på programmet och en längtan till min mamma och min tillkomna italienska familj =). Jag har lovat Guiseppe att jag ska ta tag i en italienska kurs. Måste styra upp detta snart! (och fixa körkortet för den delen med!)




Vad fina bilder du lagt upp Frieda! Jag kan lätt tänka mig att försvinna ett tag till L.A med om jag fick chansen Jag var ju nära att boka en resa till dig men jag fick inte tag på dig då så jag vågade inte boka upp något. Kan du inte stanna lite länge i USA i sommar så att jag kan komma ned i juli? Du får fixa så att vi kan snacka på skype! Svar på tal angående din kompisavundsjuka så tycker jag absolut att du ska slappna av. Du är en jättebra kompis utan att anstränga dig och de som inte uppskattar dig behöver du inte ha i ditt liv. Men sådant känner man ju på sig eller hur? Hellre äkta få vänner än många ytliga där många är falska.
Läskigt med jordbävningen därnere!

Nu ska kvällen spenderas med mina 3 F = Filt, Frukt och Fjärrkontroll!

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Ella