I still want to try movies and TV. But it's not the same thing as with being on stage and within that moment that u can never take back. It's alive and it's right here right now. That's what's fascinating with theatre and acting. And many Hollywood actors are trained by the stage, but when the big bucks keep rolling in it's hard to say no, even if the movie itself might have sucked or been good. But it hasn't given you the true experience of what it is to be an actor within the moment, because when u finally get there, they yell "CUT!" and the emotion is gone or has to be relived.
I definatley know now that I love acting for the right reason. I love the feeling within the moment, the moment where u finally connect with your character and you and it become one. I'm not saying that can't happen on the screen, it can. But on stage there are no "cuts" when the show is running. And ppl live the story right there, LIVE in front of their eyes. Oh. that's wonderful. I got a little carried away there. But after mine and Paul, my acting teachers workshop today working on my monologue I felt it all so clear to me. Why I started to go into acting, why I love it so much. Why I forgot about the true purpose and the meaning and how I found it again. And how ppl really can affect your life and give u inspiration and encouragement to go and move further. Which he did and I really appreciate that. I got constructive criticism that I need to work and learn the skills of acting. Which every beginner actor needs. But I have a lot of talent and something that not everybody have, natural instinct. I really don't know what that means, but I hope it's a good thing. Anyways. I feel really confident that this is what I want to do. I just need to figure out the path towards my goal. If it's here in L.A, Chicago, Sweden or someplace else? I don't know. As long as I can be on stage, learn more about acting and theatre and evolve and grow as a person I am happy! Oh I miss my Acting group in Sweden now. Well. I'll see them again soon...
Something I posted on FB earlier...I might post it here to. Isn't this the perfect picture of how Hollywood and the business itself has become? Why should such a sweet and pretty girl want to turn into a monster...Well I guess nobody really has the answer to that...

I don't even think I have to write the name of this person, right?...
I hope we all see this is an example, and I know that I've sometimes thought that why not change if u can and have the money for it. But I've started to think otherwise. Maybe not something I thought would happen while being here. But God works in mysterious ways...
Ella and Hanna! Write back to me! What do u think, and how are u guys??
//Frieda *