Is there any ethics left in the Entertainment business?

Well I've asked myself that question several times this last couple of weeks after a lot of interesting discussions, both with my friend Charlie who's here to become a professional dancer but also with my acting teachers in my theatre class. And before I came here, yes I admit I was a bit of a "attention seeking kinda girl" that thought that being on TV would be such an amazing thing. I feel a little ashamed of myself thinking like that. Because I forgot what the true passion is really about when it comes to the art form I know as Theatre! But I got a reminder of that, especially from Brian. He says so many good things. And we've talked a lot about how it these days is all about spectacular shows and sets that costs millions to make, and by that rising the ticket prices for a show on Broadway to as much as $350!! That's insane. And the actors kinda fade away a bit behind all this "awesome things". What happened to just performing and delivering something touching, like two ppl on stage all alone without as much as a chair, just two ppl talking and living and sharing with us, the audience. No, that's history in the big arenas. Now it's all about the set. And of course making lots and lots of money! Money, that word again. I thought I'd escape it. But no. Everything has to do with money. And when money mixes with art, it gets complicated, unfair and just wrong. It and the big players take away the true meaning and passion about what it's really about to express yourself through the art form, that is in my case theatre. I just get so upset talking and thinking about this. And my other teacher, Molly. She is so talented, she has an amazing voice and she's such a good actress. And she wants to do musicals, and on Broadway I think. But she doesn't look like the "typical" american Hollywood type that are sought for these days. So she has a harder time than many others to get there. And even if she might work hard and have the talents that makes a good musical artist, if she doesn't have the "look" she will get pushed away by some other half-good actress that just happen to have the right look that will attract an audience and make money for the ppl who put up the show. Uuck. This makes me sick!

I still want to try movies and TV. But it's not the same thing as with being on stage and within that moment that u can never take back. It's alive and it's right here right now. That's what's fascinating with theatre and acting. And many Hollywood actors are trained by the stage, but when the big bucks keep rolling in it's hard to say no, even if the movie itself might have sucked or been good. But it hasn't given you the true experience of what it is to be an actor within the moment, because when u finally get there, they yell "CUT!" and the emotion is gone or has to be relived.

I definatley know now that I love acting for the right reason. I love the feeling within the moment, the moment where u finally connect with your character and you and it become one. I'm not saying that can't happen on the screen, it can. But on stage there are no "cuts" when the show is running. And ppl live the story right there, LIVE in front of their eyes. Oh. that's wonderful. I got a little carried away there. But after mine and Paul, my acting teachers workshop today working on my monologue I felt it all so clear to me. Why I started to go into acting, why I love it so much. Why I forgot about the true purpose and the meaning and how I found it again. And how ppl really can affect your life and give u inspiration and encouragement to go and move further. Which he did and I really appreciate that. I got constructive criticism that I need to work and learn the skills of acting. Which every beginner actor needs. But I have a lot of talent and something that not everybody have, natural instinct. I really don't know what that means, but I hope it's a good thing. Anyways. I feel really confident that this is what I want to do. I just need to figure out the path towards my goal. If it's here in L.A, Chicago, Sweden or someplace else? I don't know. As long as I can be on stage, learn more about acting and theatre and evolve and grow as a person I am happy! Oh I miss my Acting group in Sweden now. Well. I'll see them again soon...

Something I posted on FB earlier...I might post it here to. Isn't this the perfect picture of how Hollywood and the business itself has become? Why should such a sweet and pretty girl want to turn into a monster...Well I guess nobody really has the answer to that...


I don't even think I have to write the name of this person, right?...

I hope we all see this is an example, and I know that I've sometimes thought that why not change if u can and have the money for it. But I've started to think otherwise. Maybe not something I thought would happen while being here. But God works in mysterious ways...

Ella and Hanna! Write back to me! What do u think, and how are u guys??

//Frieda *